Steps To Perfection

2009-03-27T22:06:00.000-07:00

EARTH HOUR.
SATURDAY 28th MARCH 2009.
8.30pm - 9.30pm

SWITCH OFF ALL ELECTRICITY .

2009-03-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

What the fuck. I probably will understand Tamil more than I understand this stranger.
No pun intended.

*** says:
hey

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
?

*** says:
u know wad?

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
??

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
what

*** says:
i know who r u

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
who am i?

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
hahaha.

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
you are in my contacts.

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
more or less you know

*** says:
i mean i know who you are

***says:
i know who the hell are u

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
uhhuh..who?

***says:
haha

*** says:
eh..some1 opposite

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
opposite?

*** says:
opposite frm my sex,

*** says:
opposite my semester

*** says:
probably different mind,wdv la

***says:
but i duno yr name

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
how u noe im different sem

*** says:
wah lau reveal everything,lidat i will sound un-smart

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
but you dont even know my name , how u know i'm frm another sem

*** says:
see u be4

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
oh?this is weird.

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
no name..you know this is my msn contact

*** says:
uhhuh

*** says:
saw yr dp be4 wad

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
woah..but ngee ann is so huge..how to spot anyone.

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
you are?

*** says:
[inserts name]

*** says:
argh im so dead

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
why?

*** says:
nah im always makin a fool of myself

*** says:
haha

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
uh? haha

***says:
ya la, stupid when im restless, stupid when im high or sth

***says:
anyway i know u frm acc

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
im not frm acc

*** says:
mmmm really??

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
BS

*** says:
oh man

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
??

*** says:
nah i didn really thought of bs

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
this is really confusing for me?

*** says:
uh, i guess its a mystery for me

*** says:
confusing to u?no

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
i dont know what youre talking about

*** says:
it didn come up to me that u were bs

*** says:
i always thought u were acc

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
ohhhhkay??

*** says:
ok tis is gettin nowhere

***says:
so wads yr name?

*** says:
actually im quite naive, give me any name n i will belive u,haha

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
okay..then all e more i shouldnt give you my name/?

*** says:
i duno depends, if u r nice

Got my blueprint , it's symphonic says:
mary.

*** says:
ok hi mary

*** says:
anyway i jus wanted to drop by to bug u be4 i sleep dats all

*** says:
long day tmr at work

***says:
good night mary =))

He's either very drunk , half fucked in the nose or senseless.
Sorry didn't mean to be so mean, but you made me think that way.

2009-03-21T20:23:00.000-07:00

We can go on all night.

Pretty good for a comedy. Blart is too round, he rolls and bounce.
A week went by with me feeling so lifeless.
Everyday, it's just me waking up to my alarm and preparing for work , sighing over things that I shouldn't be bothering too much over. Adminstrative jobs are like that, paperwork,systems and what not. All you hear is the sound of the stilettos against the marble granite and the endless ringings of Blackberries. People struggling to get work done on time, trying to escape the endless rants from the head. Packet lunch just so time could be saved, and eagerly waiting for 6pm to come.
Well, I just can't get over the fact that we interns are too underpaid. It's probably less than half of what I rightfully should earn. And damn hell , I am fucking reluctant to stay back for even a minute of OT. Cheap labour.

I'm thankful that Friday arrived. So looking forward to weekends. seriously. Catching a movie,dinner and just winding down. It's so much fun.

You. My animal print scarf.Fuchsia mp3.
HAHAHAHAHA!!! Nah, still cute...

Sunday marks the end of fun..He's going back in. I'm starting the sick cycle carousel. FAHH..

2009-03-16T15:47:00.000-07:00

1)Work is taking up too much of my time.. But at least , I wouldnt be bumming around at home.

2) I want to meet up with my sec sch classmates.....

3) I love my animal print scarf.

4) I lost my gorgeous hot pink Hello bitch Hello bastard badges just after I purchased it.AHH!!!!

5)I'm wasting alot of money on food,

6) I need to go prepare for work now. Cause I was up a little earlier than usaul , I came online to blog.

7) I dont look forward to today.

2009-03-14T07:57:00.001-07:00

HELLO BITCH . HELLO BASTARD.

2009-03-07T19:01:00.000-08:00

-Was contemplating whether to blog or not, well i've been lazy and also spending my free time doing useless stuff.
-In the end , I decided to kick in an entry.
-A week of work has passed , it's pretty alright , my department has been great so far.
-The thing that I detest so much is that I have to wake up goddamn early every morning and spend so much time travelling to my workplace. It's at UBI !
- That is why I'm dreading work . SIGHS. REALLY .
-Saturday was fun.
-Spent time winding down.
- With Ses in town for shopping, despite the heavy rain.
-I was really good yesterday, only spent on a charming bracelet! I love it like hell. HAHA.
-Accompanied Ses for her French manicure. I'm sad cause my nails are too puny to have french manicure done on them.HAHA! Anyways, they are so pretty I kept touching her nails.HAHA!
-I can't find my Hot Pink silicon.. To put in my boobs. HAHA!!! kidding. for my phone.
-Thereafter , met up with the boy at Yishun for dinner.
-Ate some green curry which was fucking oily!! Layers of oil.
-Seriously, I don't want to die of heart failure.
-The boy's almost done with his meal when I'm still scooping out the oil. HAA.
-Kept telling him how pretty my bracelet is, he had no choice but to agree.
-My appetite's back and we bought sushis to eat.
-All in all, it was much fun.
-Oh yes, my two gfs did pretty well for A's .. Well done!! Yay..
-Gonna send the boy back to camp ltr. I will feel doubly SIAN cause he's back in and I still have work tmr. URGH.
-Someone drive me to and fro work every day pleaseee.....

2009-02-28T07:55:00.000-08:00

I can't figure out why people are making such a BIG FUSS over Britney's If You Seek Amy, it has become so controversial ?!? So what if she's implying 'fuck me'. There are sooo many songs in the industry containing sex related stuff so stop condemning her. Look at JT , Lil Wayne ,
J Holiday's etc songs....
If You Seek Amy? = F U C K ME?
I bet kids wouldn't get the meaning of it anyways.
In another sense, I think it's really creative!
I caught Britney's life story on tv few nights ago and I really admired how strong she was.

Oh yes,exams over!!!! WOOHOO??
Internship coming up. Right up.

2009-02-25T04:17:00.000-08:00

I FUCKING DIG AUDRINA PATRIDGE !!

She's like the No. 1 female celeb on my list. I loveeeee Laguna Beach and The Hills, the moment she starred in The Hills I was thinking , ''They so got the right girl.''
She's like near perfect??? Very gorgeous and down to earth.
Even if she has taken nude pictures or rumors that her boobs are fake..
Well , still my favourite!!!

***

AH!!! I'm left with one last paper tmr..
Still not finished with my revision, one more chapter to bang into my head.. But why why why, I've lost the urgency to study already.. Damn I can't wait for the last paper to end.
Then I'll shoot off after the paper to the hair salon. Weeee...

For now, it's still studying.
TAA.

2009-02-22T23:06:00.000-08:00

Last night's talk with Ses made me realise how much of a lost person I've become. Used to have my own stand in the past but now I seemed to be brainwashed ,especially by someone so close and loved by me.
Seriously , reflect.
My twisted mentality.
Not sure of how to feel?
Or is it right to feel this way?
I used to be opinionated , well it might not entirely be a good thing. At the very least, I don't get wavered easily.
And it actually took one of my closest girlfriends to explain the change in me. How did I even fail to realise. Perhaps I didn't bother to take time out to ponder .
And perhaps, I still need constant guidance like a little child.
Disappointing ???
Not really. It was at first, but I took the walk home and was pretty determined to stand firm to my own beliefs.

FIT down. Somewhat tricky and tough paper! I hope I can pass. PASS?!? That wasn't my expectation before I took the paper. Hell no. But after sitting for it.. A pass seems reasonable.

Alrighty. Taking a nap. And then suss out my marketing notes. TAA.

2009-02-17T22:38:00.000-08:00

SOM suck much?!?
Or rather , exams.
I can't wait.. Can't wait for everything to be over.

I need to tell myself to persevere for now.

2009-02-15T22:57:00.000-08:00

''Sometimes we're on a collision course, and we just don't know it.
Whether it's by accident or by design, there's not a thing we can do about it.

A woman in Paris was on her way to go shopping, but she had forgotten her coat - went back to get it.
When she had gotten her coat, the phone had rung, so she'd stopped to answer it; talked for a couple of minutes.
While the woman was on the phone, Daisy was rehearsing for a performance at the Paris Opera House.
And while she was rehearsing, the woman, off the phone now, had gone outside to get a taxi. Now a taxi driver had dropped off a fare earlier and had stopped to get a cup of coffee.
And all the while, Daisy was rehearsing.
And this cab driver, who dropped off the earlier fare; who'd stopped to get the cup of coffee, had picked up the lady who was going to shopping, and had missed getting an earlier cab.
The taxi had to stop for a man crossing the street, who had left for work five minutes later than he normally did, because he forgot to set off his alarm.
While that man, late for work, was crossing the street, Daisy had finished rehearsing, and was taking a shower.
And while Daisy was showering, the taxi was waiting outside a boutique for the woman to pick up a package, which hadn't been wrapped yet, because the girl who was supposed to wrap it had broken up with her boyfriend the night before, and forgot.
When the package was wrapped, the woman, who was back in the cab, was blocked by a delivery truck, all the while Daisy was getting dressed.
The delivery truck pulled away and the taxi was able to move, while Daisy, the last to be dressed, waited for one of her friends, who had broken a shoelace.
While the taxi was stopped, waiting for a traffic light, Daisy and her friend came out the
back of the theater.

And if only one thing had happened differently: if that shoelace hadn't broken;
or that delivery truck had moved moments earlier;
or that package had been wrapped and ready;
because the girl hadn't broken up with her boyfriend;
or that man had set his alarm and got up five minutes earlier;
or that taxi driver hadn't stopped for a cup of coffee;
or that woman had remembered her coat, and got into an earlier cab,
Daisy and her friend would've crossed the street, and the taxi would've driven by.

But life being what it is - a series of intersecting lives and incidents,
out of anyone's control - that taxi did not go by, and that driver was momentarily distracted, and that taxi hit Daisy, and her leg was crushed... ''

''Goodnight Benjamin.''
''Goodnight Daisy.''

Be my Valentine.

The queue at MFM was so long?!?!?!!? Waited for pretty long and I was grouchy already. Luckily we were offered our seats when I nearly threw a bitch fit. HAHA. Kidding. Just too hungry.. We ordered their fucking humongous seafood platter set and I ate like one bulimic patient.

The night was still young and we went shopping. YIPPEE!!! HAPPY PERSON..Last night was awesome..

Until.. I came home really tired..But couldn't sleep cause I felt like puking the whole time. Blurgh. I was so scared I would dirty my bed but yet am lazy to climb all e way down. So the boy kept reminding me to place a plastic bag at my bedside. HAHA.

After all the fun, it's high time to tune myself back to my studying mode.
Been pretty slackish.
Sighs..Moderate gear Monday onwards then full gear for exam period.
And without any time to wind down, I'm up for my internship .
ARGH!!!!!!!!!

Thanks baby!! For yesterday!
Boohoo...He's going back to camp... :(

2009-02-12T02:07:00.000-08:00

1) Yesterday I managed to get studies out of the way during the afternoon and head out for Hotpot Culture's buffet. It's pretty awesome I think. WORTH IT. I cannot count with my fingers and toes how many toufus I ate. HAHA!\

2) I don't know why am I so easily irritable today. (Right when I wake up in the morning)

3) Intended revision at the library failed. Exhaustion and lack of motivation.

4) There was this self-obsessed man in 40s-50s who cannot stop bragging about himself LOUDLY to another 2 lady strangers who foolishly entertained him.

5) I'm blogging because I'm taking a break from studies. Phuahh.. :(

2009-02-09T07:37:00.000-08:00

MY HEAD'S ABOUT TO EXPLODE.
THE WORKLOAD FROM ALL THESE DAILY REVISION'S GONNA KILL ME.
SOMEBODY JUST SHOOT ME
STRESSED.

2009-02-06T18:10:00.000-08:00

ON A SATURDAY MORNING.

Socks baked these cupcakes for the class. It looks freaking pretty and taste pretty good too! Sweet.

I've only planned out my schedule , which module to cover on which day during the span of this 2 weeks study break. I really have to, because I haven't been attending school mentally. As in I totally shut out during classes and just copy answers blindly. Pointless to say, I dont attend lectures at all. Which explains my jittery mood now! The upcoming days are gonna be hard.....
I'll be mugging my ass off practically everyday because I have no rest day scheduled for myself(no time babe no time)..

No updates during the past week because yours truly am tooo lazy. Also, rushing to complete projects. The last week of school saw me through 4 presentations, which was damn well hectic.
Especially for FIT!!!!! Our group was the first to present and I'm afraid I would be late so I took a cab. In the end, the cab ride turned out worse....Ironic much? The holyshit traffic jam that day was horrendous. Late for close to an hour and the cab fare amounted to 34 bucks!! From yishun to NP. I was cursing like crazy inside, thinking the cab uncle brought me to the long route on purpose. HAHA. Formally dressed as I was that day, I didn't even bother about my image.As soon as I got down the cab, I scrambled around in my heels. (even thought of taking them off to sprint to class) HAHA.

It was practically hell this week cause I was sick throughout, and it resulted in me losing my voice again..Terrible. I had to skip presentation on Thursday due to the fact that I couldn't even project my voice. SIGHS. And one night I woke up with with a TERRIBLE HORRENDOUS sore throat and couldn't get back to sleep at all. I was super scared I don't know why, I though I was about to die. AHAHA. I woke up, went to the kitchen, sipping water and crying at the same time. I don't even know is it the tears or the water I'm sipping. Thank god Govinny was there!! THANKS! HAHA. And I eventually went to sleep.

Oh yes, I got my posting for my 2 months internship. AH!!! There's a mistake in the venue and in the end the address was Ubi Centre.Where the fuck is Ubi ?!? Bedok?!?! It's shitass far. I requested for somewhere nearer and my liaison officer said she would look into it.. Let's hope it's possible.

Thursday saw me baking cookies with SM!! It turned out fabulously great! Yummy. Maybe better than Famous Amos. Wahaha. HEE.I had a great time.

Alrighty. I'm off to have lunch. Shower. Then head out on my own to some library or what not to do revision. Wala..Hopefully I don't come back with nothing. I already wasted this morning doing this entry and surfing the net. I got quite stressed out over certain matters that I kept dreaming of it over and over again each night I sleep. And exams was one of it.
HAHA.

It isn't what it seems. Running far far away.Yes I feel like.

2009-02-01T06:06:00.000-08:00

1.I'm falling sick and feeling terrible.SORE THROAT kills cause I love to eat and it hurts with every mouth I swallow.
2.Was feeling all goony and happy to meet the boy until he had to go back to camp (teary-eyed :( ) There's something that really stings when you have to witness him to get ready, lugging that big bag , putting on his uniform and leaving. URGH.
3.I just completed some of my projects dued tmr and I'm not even ready for presentation.

Alrighty. Here are some Chinese Garden field trip pics! Ta.

2009-01-28T01:25:00.000-08:00

That was CNY with two of my cousins.

Oh my? I can't stop munching on CNY goodies and am doing so now. This year we did really little visiting. Mostly it was off to my granny's and staying there for the day.I even managed to meet the boy on the first day for Inkheart [lousy show]. Didn't really gamble much during the two days but I reckon I would during the visit to my aunt's this sunday. Furthermore, the polymates are planning on a roundabout visiting on Saturday.. I love the idea but the thought of travelling all around Singapore( literally) just scares me.

By the night of CNY Day 2, I was lamenting non-stop on how much I didn't want to head back to school for fear of the workload and all. True enough, it was like a wake up call. I've got tons of work to complete..ProjectSSS..Do up my portfolio.. Catch up on my weekssssss accumulated tutorials...Presentations... Do my revision for finals...HECK?!? I don't even know how to start the ball rolling . Seriously time to pull up my socks.. You know how you just slack off and procrastinate for too long a period, you can't seem to get things up again.

SIGHS...

On a happier note, I managed to repay Jhawn part of the debt I owe him. Woots.

Tmr's Thursday already, ain't that fast . Class outing tmr . To chinese garden as well as Sun Yat Sen's Museum if I'm not wrong? Hee I feel like I'm in primary school..And I've to wake myself up superr early. What a bummer. Hopefully I wouldn't be late from the early morning snoozings..

Once Friday hits, Baby will be OUT!!! He'll be so happy.

Till then.TATA.

2009-01-25T06:53:00.000-08:00

How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight
All the time

Nor could I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you wont take away my pride
No, not this time
not this time

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
How did we get here
Well, I think I know

Minor hiccups in Saturday's plans so it turned out to be the afternn spent with Ses at Jurong Point. FILLED WITH F****** CHINA WORKERS??!?!? Was craving for YAMI Yoghurt and literally combing the entire shopping mall to find it,only to get cheated. The one ounce of yoghurt the lady gave was like what, pigeon's dump???

Anymoohow, I'm msging too much. I hope I don't get an earful from my dad when the bill arrives.

As much as the plan to spend the entire day together was a flop, resulting in both being very unhappy, we managed to put it past us and meet up during the evening. Can't help wasting any time now that he's in NS.?

Yes, I'm almost stark white. I know.
Hee.. I can't help complimenting that he looks adorable when he smiles when I reached home and further looked at these pictures we took last night.
No need to say uh, he so happy. HAHA!

p.s. Rif's got nothing to do. So ,he dug a hole in his hotdog , stuffed butter in, and ate it.
HAHAHAHA!!!!

2009-01-17T19:26:00.000-08:00

Liberation from NS after 2 weeks . Seems so detached from the world eh? HAHA. Dinner was at Mcdonald's (eeks) , as much as I didn't want to, had to settle his cravings. And my gums swelled and hurt like crazy after dinner, too heaty..
I don't really know is it the weather or is my body really screwing up.But I feel really really exhausted and sick once evening hits. And at night, I would wrap myself up before I go to sleep. Dont laugh. I wear socks to sleep recently.

Saturday saw me wasting ALOT of time and experiencing overwhelming disappointment. HAHA! Er?!? But truth be told, I was too lost and so very sad , that I ended up bawling my eyes out while sitting at the busstop and had to phone Ses . Thank god she's there. Took a cab and went over to hers. Her lovely mama treated the hungry me to Nasi Lemak. So nice! THANK YOU! We spent our usual girly-girly time together till 9-ish. I LOVE HER.! :)
*Flowers on our head!!* Teehee.

Came back home and my Sis offered to let me play Guitar Hero on her Ds Lite which I suck far too much. I'm so not musically inclined-games inclined . But it was still loads of fun.

It might take just one person to fuck your day upside down but there are others who will just pull you back up again. Thanks... :)

p.s. I am currently on my ''ants-killing-escapade'' . My table has ants crawling around and it irritates the hell outta me.

2009-01-15T03:49:00.000-08:00

It's thursday. And I can't explain why am I so so exhausted these few days as much as I am merely going through my daily routine. Accumulative exhaustion. Monday was alright. Then it gets worse. Bahh. Other than that,I am happy happy happy with what's going on now.

Monday night - Japanese dinner with SM. Before we went to some playground to relive our childhood. HAHA. Remember those glue-smelling kind of thing which you can blow. Ahh.. I don't really know how to explain.But I love playing with that.!

Wednesday was Miao's birthday and we went all the way down to Chinatown for some dope dim sum.I was so full in the end.

I was freaking late for school today. An hour late and I was the first to present. I felt so bad. And didn't I tell you I was exhausted so I slept throughout bus rides and walked around like a zombie.

YAY YAY YAY TMR'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s . I can't wait!

Alright I need to go study for my test tmr. Sighs.

2009-01-11T19:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's shopping was wayy fun. Cept for the crowd.

I was sorting out my school related stuff and I realised I have far too much to do , much much more than I expected.. Right now, I don't even know how to organise my work and where should I start.

Furthermore, finals are coming up a week or two after CNY. Tell me how little time I have left please.

And I don't know why I keep stoning in the midst of doing something.

2009-01-08T02:28:00.000-08:00

I screamed like one psychotic freak while showering just now.
I actually squashed a beetle dead with my bare foot.

AM STILL VERY DISGUSTED BY IT.

p.s. urghhhhhhh. I feel down now..so so so.

2009-01-04T19:05:00.000-08:00

So. Today's the last day of the term break. *sighs* I feel so detached from school life that I find it so hard to get back on track. I even forgotten what modules I'm currently taking. Shocking no?

It's 2009 already. But it doesn't really feel like a new year to me. That I can't explain.

So I caught Yes Man and Bedtime Stories recently. Err.. Yes Man wins hands down . It's a pretty meaningful show with a touch of humour in it.

Thankfully, Bedtime Stories has Adam Sandler starring in it , otherwise it would be a bore. I love comedies with him in it, like Click as well as You don't mess with the Zohan.. Crappy shows I know but hilarious.

Well oh well. Saturday saw me with Ses along North Bridge road to submit some of her documents and thereafter shopping for Chinese new year clothes. I've never done so much walking for so long already.
I pretty much didn't plan what to wear,just getting whatever caught my eye. In the end, I sort of have some pairing up problems. Too many tops I think. But I think all's well in the end.

Suck that school has to start? Boo.

2009-01-01T19:26:00.000-08:00

OKAY THAT WAS FUCKING SCARY.
FIRST THING IN THE MORNING ON NEW YEAR'S DAY??!?!
DAMN IT.

2008-12-30T20:48:00.000-08:00

The eve of New Year's Eve. HAHA. Too early?
To clarke quay , intending to go to Forbidden City, but Govin and I ended up at SM's rented apartment along the river which was just within walking distance from e Central.
Oh oh oh! And hell must I mention that I had my virgin meal at Subway! Embarrassing?? But it's nice!
After dinner , we bought snacks and drinks over .

Just nice Little Nyonya came on!! WOOHOO!!
LIBBY IS SO PRETTY!

We played Black Jack and had forfeits(bad behaviour). Tsk Tsk.
The apartment's comfortable and I actually felt like spending the night there. Which is rare because I detest stayovers.
My phone's camera's being a bitch. Will upload clearer pics up when I get them.
Till then . Ta. Enjoy NYE!

LOVES.

2008-12-29T18:11:00.000-08:00

WHY THE HELL DID I EVEN DO THAT?
I THINK I WAS INSANE.
I.N.S.A.N.E

2008-12-28T19:28:00.000-08:00

Cherry tomatoes and mandarin oranges.
How apt for my lunch?
Just too bad mum's not home to cook for me. :(

*oh gosh* The insides of the tomatoes just squirted all over my laptop.

2008-12-27T08:26:00.000-08:00

I just came back from meeting SM and Ses.

They are lovely. I'm going through the ''down time" these days and am not sure when I'm gonna hit the pit, but it's definitely good to have your closest friends whom you can speak to.

I just need a few close ones . That's enough to make it up.

The support I need. Constructive advice. Cheering you on. Telling you what's right and wrong when you're in the midst of confusion. Taking your mind off for a little while. Sharing with you their problems so it's not just a one-way conversation.
Mainly , just pulling you back up again..

Thanks girls.

2008-12-26T23:38:00.000-08:00

Bound to be sour.

I just feel that the festive mood makes everything even more disappointing.

Contradicting much?

Truth be told , I hate this.

2008-12-25T07:12:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL ! !

Well, I had my fair share of fun despite being single and not getting to kiss your very loved upon the strike of midnight.
At the Aunt's with the cousins..
All immersing themselves in the atmosphere..
Guitar Hero. Buffet Dinner. Wii. Little Nyonya. Girls and boys hopping around in Santa's hat.
And what not.
I was dog tired when it hit twelve. Bshh. Left at around one-ish and headed home..
Home oh home oh sweet sweet home...

2008-12-24T23:06:00.000-08:00

I hate thinking and thinking about what to wear later. I am giving up.
Can I just slip into a huge tshirt and get out.
Apparently not. SIGHS..

Furthermore, I am not feeling my best.
Being sick , recovering and all the foo-moos shitty stuff.
How to enjoy a Xmas party like that???

OKAY ENOUGH Of WHINING.

Monday was my poly mates Xmas celebration cum gathering? Yupp.
It's a fucking huge house babe! 4 terraces joined to form one?!?!? Dope man.
All except for her freaking Jack Russell which came barking and charging towards me.. My heart nearly flew out.
It was a BBQ session and the smoke was killing me slowly.. I mean really.
With the flu and all..Bahh. So I just sat there and ate. *guiltyy*
By eight, the girls were all rushing to finish bbq-ing the food just so we could rush indoor to catch The Little Nyonya!!! 2 good hours of it!!
Awesome.
Why are private houses so ulu at night? Somehow has that eerie chill to it when I walked down the lane to the bus stop.
Hopped on the bus and rode back home.

The very next day , nastyy..
I caught a fever ,flu, my gums giving me shit.
Stayed home the entire day feeling too miserable.

Alright.Down to my Aunt's for Xmas party later.
Put on your Xmas hats and boogey the night away!Enjoy the Christmas Eve! :)

2008-12-20T19:03:00.000-08:00

~~Jingle bells , cockle shells.~~

Ses and I went to city area initially for shopping?? But it turned out to be just sitting around and catching up , other than lunch.

One area of my teeth/gum was bothering me so much I kept complaining anddd complaining. HAHA. I was irritating. Really.. Too bad I'm just not one who would keep problems to myself, I must complain to closed ones to make myself feel better.
//
M1 gave this reindeer when you purchase phone. So my dad came back with it today. The moment he stepped home, he complained that I was spending too much time dressing up. So I rushed through everything, grabbed anything within my reach (including the reindeer) and went out.So I took it out to breathe whilst having lunch.

You know how your appetite gets all spoiled because of lousy food? Yes. The shitass lousy noodles I was eating.
I got all cranky.. My stomach growling. My gums hurting. AND I STILL GET LOUSY FOOD!!!

Starbucks.

There seems to be alot of young married couples lately no?? With babies. Like really young to be tied down . It feels kind of warm to watch them and I wonder how it actually feels to be in their shoes ,yet on the other hand I get all paranoid thinking that one of them is bound to stray since they are so young. What weird logic?

Ses went over to my sch for performance. So I trained home alone with the company of the good old book.Snow Flower and the Secret Fan. My mum loves books like these and so do I. Everytime I come home with one from the library, she would just go:''Haiyo.This one I read before already!'' Then goes on saying :''This one very poor thing luh!'' HAHA.

Oh yes.. Got my new phone yesterday. Thanks DADDY! He can be really nice at time [of course luh buy things for you] . ;) I LOVE KEYBOARD PHONES . God knows why. SM kept saying it is ugly. WHY!!!!?!?!??! Actually I dont even need that many functions cause I'm quite dumb when it comes to IT related stuff. I took like an hour to figure out the phone ( too lazy to read the manual) and I got a freaking headache. Don't laugh at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

//
Thank goodness my class's Xmas party's postponed to Monday, else I would be in a dilemma whether to go to the party as promised long ago or to visit my Grandma in the hospital. She fell down and broke her leg. Oldie's bones are soo brittle!

Toodles.!

2008-12-17T04:53:00.000-08:00

Haven't updated in awhile???

The parents applied leave from work on Monday, so our family of four went down to Vienna for buffet. Slurps. I ate so much Sashimi. LOVE IT. I swear I could eat more, but I didn't.. I think I wasn't feeling right.

So my parents came home with me around 3-ish while my sis went her own way. Yuh of course my mum had e brilliant idea of playing mahjong and asked SM to come over. I was on a LOSING STREAK. Booo....

Wednesday saw me in town with SM. I hate staying home but am lazy to go out as well. Tsk tsk.
Okay that was stupid. We went to try ice snow flakes at Far east?? Overrated. Perhaps it's cause of those interesting names they gave.. Well , we tried Hot Chick. Tasted pretty decent.

Bought these gorgeous flowered rings and hairclip.The rings are too pretty.

Oh yes, and I've been spending my time at home either using the net, reading the book and also getting into the festive mood!

Preparing stuffs to give people around me for christmas. Ask me for a candy cane with hand made card if I happen to meet you!! :)

Lots of love and enjoy the season of giving!!:)

2008-12-14T07:59:00.000-08:00

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
Id roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick with who I wanted
And I'd never get confonted for it
Cause they'd stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man.
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would just turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waitin for me to come home

But youre just a boy
You dont understand (Yeah you dont understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You dont listen to her
You dont care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause youve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But youre just a boy

Yes. Tell everyone.
I'm always thinking I'm correct and right. You're wrong.
Yes maybe that's true, I'm that selfish.
I'll be selfish for one last time and leave.
Because then nothing will bother you anymore.

Didn't want to do it before the birthday, cause all that matters was that you enjoyed.
No, you did it just after . As bad.
Yeah perhaps,cause I'm such a bitch.
Such a foolish fuckass bitch to be putting so much effort into the ppt slides.
Only to know you want it deleted without taking a glance at it.
Yes , I can't satisfy you.
Never will I.

One is never enough.
Plenty, plenty of em makes a man happy.
Cause there's another, another at your beck and call.
Comes purring like a kitten to you and you melt.
Then job done, you hunt for more.

Oh what's this without trust.
Then again
what's this without the naked truth.
And
what's this with those hideous lies.

2008-12-14T00:12:00.000-08:00

Bad Day.(Plus a bit of yesterday)

The people around me are...

Pissing the hell out of me.

Poops.

2008-12-11T03:07:00.000-08:00

I think Seoul Garden stinks you up after dining there. Seriously, seriously stinks you up.. Just like any barbecue does. Must rush back home to bathe like there's no tomorrow.

Eww. *pinches nose* Cause I smell like BBQ fried squid.

Happy advanced birthday.

I bought a hugeass gorgeous Marie comb and pencil. Teehee.

Now that common tests are over, I don't know what's the pencil for .
Yes today marks the end of my CTs! Means 3 weeks holiday!
Which I desperately NEED TO WORK TO GET $$ TO PAY JHAWN. It's such a large amount!!!!!! :( *sighs*
If he ever reads blog, thank you for driving me all the way back to yishun!:)

Toodles.

Should I be ashamed.

2008-12-10T02:09:00.000-08:00

About this book

"Using some experiences from the writer's own background in an established Straits Chinese family, this novel is the story of Bebe, a young Penang girl trapped within the inhibitions of her era. Set between 1928 and 1959, the book chronicles Bebe's life, with its tears, tragedies, cruelties and romance and offers much apt insight into a now only-just-remembered way of life."

I read this book quite some time ago and the straits-chinese culture (peranakan) never fails to intrigue me. It's funny how much people change. Those traditional practices and thoughts, how women were born to serve the men ; how much a lady's virginity matters when it comes to marriage ...etc.. Current generations are so open-minded now.

I AM SO ADDICTED TO THE CURRENT CHANNEL 8 SHOW .
The Peranakans ,Nyonyas ( female) and Babas (males). A heritage unique to Southeast Asia, a mixture of Malay and Chinese cultures with a dash of the English way of life.

The Babas and Nyonyas were wealthy and influential people in the business world. This is evident in their jewelry costumes (sarung kebaya), shoes and embroidery pieces, items of refined workmanship highly sought after by art and antique collectors.

The Baba's traditional costume is a Chinese dress, with intricate embroidery sewn using gold thread. The ladies wear sarung kebaya, a heavily embroidered Malay-style tunic with a Western style long skirt.

The Nyonya dishes are mixture of Chinese and Malay dishes, giving it a distinct flavor of its own.

Yet, despite of the adoption of various cultures in their daily life, they have clung to their Chinese identity in some aspects.

Oh what can I say?? Such a beautiful culture! :):)

2008-12-09T04:18:00.000-08:00

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you it's hurting me

2008-12-06T00:57:00.000-08:00

Ooooverdued pictures.
Cupcakes I baked for Ses's Birthday . Sheesha (Stark contrast man!)

A-O-kay. Back to the present.
Today was AAA paper..UNLUCKY UNLUCKY. Tell me , cursed or what.. Damn those giddy spells.

I went into the MRT as usual with an empty stomach( don't have the habit of taking breakfast) .. NO SEATS.for the whole journey. Major Boo. So I stood and went through my notes. After a few stops , I felt all too uncomfortable to continue reading . Broke out in cold sweat, sharp pain in my stomach , the monotonous beeeepppp you hear when you're about to black out all came at once. Almost passed out at the door. Couldn't take it, and I alighted at Yew Tee station and sat on one of the benches in a daze.

Phew. Thankfully I felt better so I decided to take a cab. The taxi stand had around 5 people before me!!! AHH!!! *screams* Frantically dialled Jhawn's no. to see if he was driving pass Yew Tee and he didn't know where that place was. GOOD. HAHA.

No choice but to wait and I WASN'T LATE. Yay. The chatty cab uncle was nice! :)

-After exam-
I felt too neutral to even comment on the paper. Jhawn drove me all the way to Yishun. THUNG YOU!! haa.

I did my dear girl's Shumin's birthday card up while waiting for her to come meet me for lunch! :) Tee hee. She's spending her birthday on air. How awesome. Get hot stewards and stewardesses to sing you birthday song.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! LEGAL 18.

Went over to her's after the not-so-filling lunch (eh I'm hungry right!) .. She was packing up her winter wear and I never thought I was so crazy to put this on in SINGAPORE , SINGAPORE. HOT PLEASE.

Back to revision after dinnerr.
Toodles.

2008-12-05T22:33:00.000-08:00

My desk is in a mess now.. Notes strewn everywhere and anywhere. I can't believe it, I spent one whole damn week studying AAA (some dumbass accounting module) , ONE WEEK. All because I skipped lectures, doodling away during the tutorial but I also want to put some blame on my tutor.. Pretty sucky one.

I was at home one afternoon and the weather was awesome. You know those going-to-rain-but-yet-never-rain weather?Made my room so comfy!

I LOVE DARK AMBIENCE. NO...not morbid or what, I just feel that it's more cooling that way. My mum hates the way I draw my curtains all the way and she purposely changed them to the sheer one so light could enter. -_-. ''You think you vampire uh?!?'' YUH LA, I THRIVE BETTER UNDER SUCH CONDITIONS.
* shows vampire fangs*

Yesterday, I had sudden craving for instant noodle.Cheapskate craving luh. Good thing. Spend less. *nods head in approval* Asked the boy if I should get Hot pepper,onion chicken or curry. He was totally in for Myojo's prawn noodles. I bought it plus a packet of chicken franks. Upon reaching home, I was too excited to eat his dope recommendation. I think I have more slices of chicken franks overpowering the noodles. *pukes*
Tasted it...*KWA KWA KWA* blahh~~~~
We have VERY DIFFERENT taste.

Tmr's the start of my common tests, AAA!! ~~ I can feel the pressure~~ Better be good , I took one bloody freaking week to study you inside out , outside in. Eww? Spend my time alone at Coffeebean,BK, SM's house, late nights at home...etc.. See how much I love-hate you,AAA?

Im'ma take a nap. Wake up . One last revision. Paint my fingernails blood red and toes dripping black. Have a nice shower. Dinner. And relax my night awayy..

Toodles...

2008-12-03T02:33:00.000-08:00

Random shots to compensate my absence. CTs coming! I feel like I've put in quite abit of effort doing revision but when I tried online quizzes, the results are poo-ish..

Did I mention I chopped off my hair? HAHA.

FOR MY HERO!!

No joke. That ain't faux eyelashes on her. (Below) It's a piece of black paper cut into thin shreds. Pretty awesome and real but a lil too dramatic. HAHA! I couldn't even stop laughing when I helped her with tt.
Recent addition to Laugh, GRUMPY....

And last but not least , Nic during Bcomm class with her 'sampat' hair.
I told you they were RANDOM shots.
XOXO.

2008-11-29T22:36:00.001-08:00

Chopped off my hair!

2008-11-26T01:06:00.000-08:00

Common tests nearing, I reckon I wouldn't spend much time here if there's nothing interesting. Cause I've been hell busy lately.Just yesterday , I was feeling all too bothered by so many issues. Sighs.. Luckily the sleep helped. :)

And Sunday with SM and JJ at Thai Express.THE FOOD'S TOOOOO SPICY!!!! The funny thing is I met Ses the day before and she told me she was going out on Sunday. I went :''We might bump into one another!'' And we did. HAHA.

Geez , the hairband I bought recently is gorgeouss. I'mma go back to get another one in a different colour. :)

And yeah, our mock business lunch went well! But too darn bad, I detest suits. SO UNCOMFORTABLE..

I can't wait to get a job and earn some moneyy.

Ohkay. Till then.

2008-11-23T07:29:00.000-08:00

BLOG WILL BE REVIVED.
STAY TUNED.

2008-09-27T20:48:00.000-07:00

Booze away the night.
The tad bit too salty seafood kebabs.
And what a way to end the night.
Thou shalt not be mentioned.
HAHA.

2008-09-25T07:27:00.000-07:00

OLLA! Work has started and it was pretty fun, comparing it to my previous job experiences. Perhaps for one , I've got my cousin as a companion. :) Briefing day was major boredom, just packing of goodie bags for the kids . Only 2 guys so Samantha and I had to assist them in transporting the goddamn heavy tables up,down and around Science Centre to set up the area we were in charge of.

The official thing started yesterday , kids started pouring in and as much as they are more than adorable, it was hectic having to put them in place, hard getting their attention despite the booming mic. And clearing up after them caused me to have backache cause their tables are soo short. HAHA.
Oh yes, one girl smelled like vomit.

Oh you know it, I got smitten by a Japanese boy. He is gorgeousssssss. I will kidnap him, fold him into my bag and bring him home with me. HAHA. A whole lot of kids that came are beautiful, but he really really stood out. I regret not taking a picture with him. :(

I quite like this job to date, I mean, getting to do free tours around Science Centre when there's no schedules for us? ,that's pretty damn good already. I think the activity which we had to guide the kids through sucked.Can preschoolers get what's optical illusion in the first place or do they even bother? HAHA.

Alright I gotta get going. Re-boost my energy for chaos tomorrow. Ciaos.

2008-09-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

Probably time for an update. A whole lot took place from my previous entry till now but I can't give two cents to blog it out. All I know is that I'm declared bankrupt(seriously) and in debt. *sighs* On a better note, I landed myself a week-long job which consists of handling children! Okayy, it's either they die or I die.

Went over to Science Centre for the interview with my cousin. We were sent to the boardroom and whilst waiting for the interviewer, we both turned to check the time on the clock and burst out laughing exactly at the same time. Oh god, it's too damn hilarious. Why make things so difficult for yourself?!?

Then I started acting as the CEO: '' OK, we will have a break now. Please be back by.....*squints eyes so hard and try to make sense of the stupid dumb clock* ...forget it. ''
*turns to secretary* '' It's a 15 minutes break, tell them what time to be back.''
Secretary ( in an agonizing voice) :''But sir....'' *continues staring at clock*.

okay. I need moolahhhssss!!!!!!!! Desperate measures. Tsk tsk.

2008-09-13T20:21:00.000-07:00

Town is gorgeous on Saturday nights.I mean the people.Winks. Oh I ain't suppose to spend but seeing something I love and not purchasing is retail suicide. Shetloads of bangles . The jacket which the boy dislikes. I still can't get over how different our taste are. *shakes head and sigh*
Went over to Ses's place for a little while,before meeting love, main reason to release my pee. HAHA. SES! I need Wonderbra! HAHAHA!

I don't like it. I don't.

2008-09-11T08:47:00.000-07:00

Hello 2 months. Young and in love.
Baby.
You are entitled to:
1) Your boxers and briefs ,
2) Daily dose of love capsules --read the little note inside on the designated day ,
3) Sorry heart tabs in advance-- pull out 1 'sorry' tab each time you think I'm at fault and yet I refuse to apologise . Take it as I did when you take the tab out. HAHA.
4) kisses
5) unconditional love

It has been the craziest two months.

Please get well soon. If all other medication fails, swallow the capsules.
KIDDING.

2008-09-09T03:10:00.000-07:00

YOU'RE FUCKING MEAN.
TALK TO ME LIKE THAT. GO AHEAD.

2008-09-06T21:27:00.001-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm in desperate need of a job.

2008-09-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

Cause I'm too ashamed to let you see me cry.

2008-09-05T20:42:00.000-07:00

Just as I was feeling all too gloomy last night, I peeked out of my gate and saw Faridah (my neighbour) along the corridor. OMG I think she has the prettiest eyes ever. She started waving at me and blowing me kisses. Ah she's too cute to resist. Opened the door and started playing with her as she ran up and down , sinking into my lap every now and then. I used to think taking care of kids was such a chore, but I wouldn't mind having one like her! Before I knew it , she was in my house climbing up and down my sofa. AHH! I can't get over her and her soft curly locks. Before she left, Mum scooped her up and started smooching her. She wasn't even afraid. Really made my night.
Such a cutie pie. :)

TATA!

2008-09-04T04:06:00.000-07:00

Why me? Why , me?
Maybe in time to come I will delete this post. But for now, I can't help it.

Wherever did that phrase come from? You can never be satisfied with what you have so make do with whatever you possess. I'd say bullshit.
Hold up... After some thoughts, MAYBE.

Deep within me I know , I would be damn well satisfied if I were granted what I'd always always yearned for. Things don't come easy , why must it always be ''You're given this now, I'll take that away from you.''

You ask me :''How much you want this? Is it really that important to you? Can it bring you any further in life?Look beyond what you want,maybe other matters could take your mind off this.''
Truth is, I'm too blinded , far too blinded by my deepest desire ,that I'm not giving two cents about what's good around me. I'm losing my focus , jeopardizing my life, my own life, when it is what I'm existing for.

I shouldn't be deprived of this just yet. Why , why me?Because of this. I shy away from opportunities , I'm not even pragmatic when it comes to decisions I have to make , always giving way to this obstacle. I sulk at the dinner table. I'm revolving too much around what I lack, far too much, things could have been better. I can perform better.

I have always wanted to ask people around me: '' Would you rather live ten years lesser but yet a very happy and fulfilling life OR ten years more but you're not really enjoying your entire life? ''
I'd forgo living ten years more.
Then again, what makes me happy?

Give me what I deserve.
Is it society's expectations of an individual or is it just mine alone??
I'm breaking under pressure.

2008-09-02T06:40:00.000-07:00

I'm crazy unhappy now.

2008-08-31T01:51:00.000-07:00

Oh oh what a night by the bay.

Hail singlehood. Just girls , girls and more girls. Sweet.

2008-08-29T05:22:00.000-07:00

Oh how I missed those days. those people. those times! Back to YTSS for teacher's dayyy. :)

Dance mates.Hello JJ Wong. My Biology khaki. We always get the best 2 spots for bio ranking,no? HAHA. Please mug hard for A's !!!

Ah. I lovee these girls..
And see! The cutest teacher! I'm always wanting to take a photo with her everytime we visit.. HAA. She went:''oh I remember you!'' Who else but the fearful one.

Lunch at BK with JJ and classmates. Then I went to meet the dancers , I've got no stomach space for Swensens anymore. :( And where else to wrap up the day but at SM's place snoring away. YES. How fun.

2008-08-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

Oh balloons. What if you were being SET FREE? What would you do? Where would you go? Would you ever return to the string holding you back?
Or would you fly far in search of what you want?
Or maybe deflate and fall to the ground?

I'm so tired of being here.
Suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave.

2008-08-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

2 days with the boy. Perfect way to kick start my holiday!
Monday saw me with him in town. Yes town, finaallyy set foot there to shop. And I've came to realise that baby and I have really different taste. :( HAHA. Pulling him around , asking him to make decisions for me until I saw his bored-to-death look. Poor thing poor thing. Haa. I'mma happy shit after all that retail therapy. Yippee.

He came over today. Mac breakfast. DVD. I got really bored after awhile and forced him to have his nails painted. HAHAHA! Rif, your reputation is GONE. But too bad, who ask you to be my boyf.! HAHAA!!
Baby, you have long tongue! haa.

LOVE YOU!

2008-08-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

HEY COUSINS. :)
I haven't seen them for months,months,months.. And so it was granny's birthday, got to see each other. It's good to have same-aged girls as your cousins, we would have at least some things in common.

Cheryl and Samantha.
Samantha! I'll drop by your place someday! hahaha.

It was a little weird cause we drifted apart after so long. I wonder if all 3 of us would get married together at the same time. That would be nice. HAHA!! What a far fetched thought..

p.s. I haven't been to town for such a long time and I really feel like going for some shopping. BOOHOO.

2008-08-22T21:00:00.000-07:00

I AM SO GLAD THAT FINALS FOR THIS SEM ARE OVERR!!!!
Been mugging for the past week, and it's pure torture I tell you. Even dreamt I couldn't complete studying on time. Screw the dream, my revision went on pretty well though.
Left early for CMA's paper ,decided to give the post-exam class outing a miss so Jhawn drove me home. Yippee! 2 freaking months of holidays!! I can't help but feel so excited when I was in the car. Spelling out what I intended to do during this break ,sweet.

Anymoohow, got to meet the boy after what seemed like eons.The movies available were pathetic and we had to settle for 4bia. It's pretty scary but some of the parts were not very realistic.

HAHA! He said my legs looked distorted here. Yes, I do agree.

When I reached home last night, I was so bummed out. The moment I lay on my bed , I fell asleep.

And with so much time on hand now, I can stuff myself silly with reality shows.Am currently hooked on A shot at love 2 with Tila Tequila.
Tila is hot. Bangin body , hands down.

Oh, that bad-ass, slutty appeal that doesn't seem to go wrong.

2008-08-18T08:34:00.001-07:00

Pretty damn sad. :( :)

Monday. 18/8/2008

2008-08-18T06:11:00.000-07:00

The final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it's all the same
Another time and place
Repeating history, and you're getting sick of it

You dont really want to stay,no
you dont really want to go,no

First paper down. 2 more to go. YAY. But the next 2 paper requires so much thinking and computation that it's scaring me quite abit. And yet I'm still here,not making the best of my time.
//
I don't know why but I think my system is going all wrong these days. I keep doing the wrong things, some are quite senseless that I wonder why the heck I did that a few seconds later.
The most atrocious thing happened.
I was going to Ses's place just this evening and when we were on our way up, we bumped into her dad. So, I wanted to extend my greetings and call him ''Uncle'' like I usually did. And god knows why why why did I blurt out ''Ah gong!'' WTF!?!? It just came out like that! It was sooooooooo embarassing I felt like hiding in some shithole right at that moment. Well, everyone was pretty much in a shock while I stood there laughing till my stomach twisted. Okayy, freaking hilarious and also doesn't make sense to me at all. Ah gong and Uncle don't even sound alike, whatever is going through my mind .?!?

//
On a random note''
Katjes Berry pleasure is the best best best gummy ever. Win hands down.
Great company whilst mugging for exams.

I just have to grit my teeth and get through this week. Once Friday comes, I will be oh-oh-oh so happy!!! All hail the 2 months baby. :):)

2008-08-13T00:06:00.000-07:00

everything's in a fucking mess.I don't want to be bawling my eyes out every single time we meet. So tired.So damn tired. I don't know what to do.

2008-08-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

You don't hop from friends to friends as and when you like.
Now you cast me aside without any warning, without any fucking reason.

I made my way to school with a jolly mood right till I reached the bus-stop where we were supposed to meet, rang you up and you said you were already in class.
Fine, maybe I was late .

Went to class , where was the empty seat beside you which you always reserved for me?
Gone. Taken up. You made me sit at the edge.
Fine, I'd rather join the others.

Where were the times whereby you readily agreed to accompany me to the washroom?
''No, I just went with ----. I'm still copying my notes.haha.''

Why make empty promises?
'' Yes, I'm gonna take whatever you are taking next semester.Be it FIT or IEF.Promise.''
We even made childish finger hookups.
And just then, you rang me up saying,
''hey,I've made up my mind to join ---- to take FIT, I'm very sure. You want to join me?''

Whatever happened to
''I cannot imagine the rest of my poly life without you.''

Utterly disappointed.

2008-08-06T19:46:00.000-07:00

I'm having the weirdest dreams lately. My days were fine up to date, and I'm crazily trying to catch up with my work. Finals are only approaching and I already can't wait for the 2 months break. I am just so distracted by so many other stuff.

2008-08-05T05:05:00.000-07:00

Eighteen was great great ,great., cept for the fact that the f bias tutor made me shed tears on my birthday. No, I wasn't sad but instead , very very mad at him and partially also cause I saw how my peers stood up for me. Other than that, the rest of the day was AWESOME. Had a far-too-filling lunch buffet at Sakae Sushi with the mates.Shared a table with Jhawn, he told me so much shets and we ate endless salmon sashimi. HAHA! Rushed home for a quick shower before meeting up with the sweetest boy. Wrapped up the day with him.

TIME TO MUG HARD.

2008-08-03T08:47:00.000-07:00

Sunday was more than awesome for me. 2 of the my most important girlfriends in my life came together to (pre) celebrate my birthday. I was caught offguard seriously. Words can't express how touched I feel and it was such a surprise . So many lies told uh , Andrina Lim!! But white lies doesn't harm. And shumin! Didn't expect to see you there! All in all, it was a fun time with the sinful dinner.

Shoutout:

*Andrina , wow we are like the closest gfs ever. From primary school till then and ongoing. Nothing's gonna tear us apart, we endured each others' flaws and helped pick one another up throughout these years. I was so afraid we would drift apart when we were separated into different schools but we held on to our friendship and kept going. Long talks on the phone, crying and pouring out whatever I feel, bitching non-stop....etc.No doubt , you read me like a book; know me inside out.. I LOVE YOU !!!!

*Shumin , I don't know if you will ever read this. We knew each other so long ago.. Childcare centre remember?? But we never got close till Secondary 3, you played a significant role in my life thereafter. You tolerated so much of my nonsense and helped me through all the hiccups I encountered in my life. I will never ever forget what happened during Prom night. It was hell and I collapsed outside that clinic ; couldn't even pull myself up but I was so relieved you were there ,letting go of all the fun you were supposed to have and frantically contacting my parents. True friends are just like you. Also, your silly acts (making me laugh like a shithole) and those lovely visits to your house where I always fall asleep there. I LOVE YOU!!!!

PICTURES!
Fish&Co. Bday cake. The very nice family beside us. My two gorgeous girlfriends.Kick-ass night.
:)

Once again, I really appreciate everything you girls did. I love you babes!

2008-08-02T00:41:00.000-07:00

Words are merely words. When to believe?

2008-07-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

Today's a long day.
Cut the long story short.
A series of piccas during tutorial to kill time.

Heavy spasm.

2008-07-29T11:00:00.000-07:00

The moment he came into our class, I was like "Eh! Matchy matchy!'' And I demanded to take a photo with him. HAHA. He's effing hilarious, never fails to crack me up.

Half an hour to preparing for school and I'm still here, digging into strawberry yoghurt, tutorials and project work undone.Insane procrastination period.

Yesterday during lunch with the mates.
'' Don't you realise there are more good looking guys in campus recently?''

Nicole(in a serious tone) :''That's what makes life wonderful and the world a better place to live in.''

HAHAHHAHAHA! So cute luh you Nicole, *squeeze your buttcheeks* Forgetting the fact that she did a very unethical thing yesterday. Tsk tsk.

Alright. Off to another crazy day in school.

2008-07-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

I'm in DEEP SHIT and am fucking disappointed with myself.

Moreover,the reds syndrome has come to visit. Not helping one bit.

2008-07-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

I just came back from a meetup with Rif. Poor boy had cuts and bruises, screw that insane guy who did this to him. Fucking crazy. It was time well spent tonight.From those silly truth questions that we targeted at one another. So, now we know so much absurd stuff about one another.Downright embarassing. HAHA. Geez boy, you cheeky. Things didn't go that well in the beginning, minor hiccups. Seriously, I was so afraid he would be pissed off and surprisingly, he held it in, not getting mad at all. How nice, I think if he were to flare up at me someday, I would definitely freak out and wail like some toddler.HAHA. *exaggerating*
Demanded that he spent the night with me on my birthday, no working or anything else!!

This upcoming week will be just me isolating myself in projects and catching up with tutorials. Stay focus.!! I somehow thought things through about my bestest project bud whom I mentioned in the previous entry, that the reason I received such tremendous change in the attitude towards me was partially my own doing. As much as I'm used to hearing him put me down in every aspect (be it jokingly or seriously) , I do have my limits and it does sting at time. Jokes can't be carried too far and don't always compare me with every other girl you see. It sucks. Put yourself in my shoes.

2008-07-25T19:53:00.000-07:00

kick-ass lovin'.
Don't gimme no long face , just exit with grace.

YES. The weekends again! All I know, this joy is short term. 2 major project presentations on the following following week, one of which I have absolutely no shitty idea what is going on. Guess it right, computer related. :/:/ Needless to say, every single day of next week will just be me swimming in pools of projects.*sighs*

During Mr Tay's (freaking funny but one of the very strict tutors) class on Tuesday, wasn't able to concentrate for nuts. Nicole and I had a game of BITCHES. A rare sight whereby I won. I've got this curse of not being able to win during games. HAHA.

Wednesday- At Baby's place , caught 'I am Legend' [pretty interesting show] . Sets me thinking, I wonder what would I do if I were the last one standing on earth. Prolly have committed suicide. Yes, I am that negative. Headed to school after that.

Thursday- *screams!* The useless I&E module is over for good!!!! Yippee.. Wrapped up our last lesson with presentations of our events. Other groups did pretty well. For all I know, this is the slackest module ever.

Friday- Getting so fucking pissed off during CMA tutorial. I dislike the tedious process for accounting. Furthermore, I can see that things are different now. Friends come and go, we are drifting apart now. From the best of the best project mates to this? I cannot imagine not working together with you because our working styles are so similar. I even planned to stick with you for our choices of electives for Year 3. Entrepreneurship & International Business? Yes ,I will go with you. But , I don't know what is wrong with us now. Is it you or is it me?
I was so affected by how you behaved but casted it all aside for I know we are celebrating our friend's birthday.
Anymoohow, we went to Miss Clarity's Cafe for the celebration. I love the place, it's super girly.

Evening was spent with the boy for The Dark Knight. An almost 3 hours film, it was pretty okay . Headed to find his friends thereafter . Been spending quite some time with him this week, to compensate for next week?? HAHA.

Till then.

2008-07-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

This is the first ever Monday I enjoyed. Kicking away all the sick Mondays' blues( knowing that I have to make my way to school and that there's still five long days ahead before the weekend hits again.)
Well, today saw me waking up at holly 830am, getting ready and heading out to baby's place.
Mac breakfasts . Get Smart. Rainy weather. Warm snuggles.
Time passed so quickly and before we knew it, it's time for us to head to school . :( Bid our goodbyes and went our seperate ways.
All in all, I can never get enough of today. Thanks a truckload. :)
Simple things like these.

Stable now.:)

2008-07-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

Sitting in the cafe, talking over everything in our life like we always do. I have always enjoyed that. She understands everything, every jingly migly bullshit I feel. Baked cheese pasta, good old milk tea... Then the chilli sauce came into the picture and I started playing with it. Took a picture of what I did and sent it over to the boy but he received it like really really late. Nevermind, as long as it gets through to him. :) Girls being girls, camwhoring in the toilet , never a rare sight. Oh yes, while we were at Esplanade, we saw something outrageous. I'm not a guy but I can't help staring at her butt cheeks already. What do you think the guys were doing?? Swimsuit clad with only a netted shawl- like thing over her. At Esplanade?!?! Cover up.
Wonder what's with Singaporeans and fireworks, I think fireworks put them on temporary high , considering the bunch of girls screaming behind us. But I don't deny the pretty sight though. :)
On a random note, chocolates are seriously lethal. Now, the sore throat is back, together with the cough. I hope I don't lose my voice again!

*p.s drina. Thanks babe. Sorry for feeling so rotten for the rest of the night. I felt like I was screwed over a thousand times. Well, you were there, you witnessed the whole thing.Read your piece,and yes, the present did nothing to deserve this. ''The right one will never be right until I allow it to be.'' So true.. Thanks once again.*

2008-07-17T12:39:00.000-07:00

School is killing me. Strings of projects and piling up tutorials. Made me realise how far I've lagged behind with all that skipping of lectures. Courting my own death, seriously. For now, it's time to focus *slaps self* ..The recent presentations my group did were pretty good, As!
Alright , nuff about school work. The past two days ,spent with the boy after school.He's been really nice so far, always giving in. Pushing away his work for our meet up;walking with me all the way from yishun back to mine even though he's drained out after his takraw game ; and his never ending assurance .Thanks I really appreciate it.:)God knows when we will be able to meet again, with the upcoming jam-packed schedule. And also, I need time for my girlfriends!

No school today. But am meeting Ariel later for tuition.! Bye!

*Isn't it ironic to dream of you?*

2008-07-15T09:04:00.000-07:00

It's not within my sanity.
Stupid , inhumane, foolish.
I must be crazy..
No sparks. Just reliance.
This is going nowhere.
I'm afraid.Very.

2008-07-14T05:02:00.000-07:00

There is no need to holla at me the moment I step home. Over such a trivial matter?? I'd say you're sick. Can't get enough of venting your anger, you dig up matters that gave you a chance to . Whenever I try to make my stand, you claim I'm rude. The way you view things is so narrow and conservative, it's such a constant struggle between living my life the way I like and the way you WANT me to. Though we're living under one roof, I hate to spend time alone with you , to the extend I refrain from crossing path with you.
Most of the time, I wish it's just my mum and I.

2008-07-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

The bazaar, yes. It wasn't as crowded as I expected. Foolish because customers were mostly 'our own people', if you get that. Anyone in the right mind would obviously head to the pasar malam right opposite rather than this bazaar.
Jhawn came over to fetch me and it was so freaking hard to communicate with my voice gone. Literally, gone. Even when we went to Pizza Hut for lunch, I wanted to put across my orders and the waitor must have thought I was mute.
Anymoohow, the bazaar was still fun with the company of friends. :)
Two Rs. One on each side. Can this get any better???? Feast my eyes.*winks*
My female eyecandy was there too, smokin hot!

Tell me what's the issue,who I give this lips to.
...Slut.

2008-07-11T00:28:00.000-07:00

My voice is like a faulty radio.
Everywhere I go, or whoever I meet , they will laugh and say,
'' Nevermind la, it's quite sexy.'' Even my dad.
No sympathy. :(

2008-07-10T12:40:00.000-07:00

If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes?
Would you believe me if I said I was tired of this
Well here we go now one more time

I tried to climb your steps, I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way,I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I have tried to beat this

So when will this end? It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

2008-07-07T19:44:00.000-07:00

screw theheadache.thesorethroat.thefever.thelethargy.theexams.

It's no longer,no longer.

2008-07-06T07:01:00.000-07:00

"My barring heart and I
It's a mystery how people behave
When he kissed me I gladly gave in
To a fight nobody could win
Man,he left me blue
And if I could, I would do it too
I tell you now like I told you before
Love is a powerful force
Nerve wrecking, acrobatic backwards bend
All for a happy end."

My saturday evening.
Was pretty well spent, glad that I took time out for some fun despite the overpowering need to study.
Town.Dinner.Movie.Esplanade.Heart to heart conversation. It was great.
WANTED is good. I bet all the guys are experiencing orgasms during the show.
Brad Pitt is one lucky chap.

The moment I woke up today, I had to get myself seated on my desk . How nice. Fuck CMA. It's already the night and I covered only 3 out of 8 topics. I'm utterly screwed. Spent so much time attempting the questions and trying to make sense of everything.

Alright. I'm heading back to death chamber.
Good week ahead. :) At least, I hope.

2008-07-04T08:28:00.000-07:00

Once again, it's the end of the week.
Oh yess the event , raising awareness for AFA ( Action for AIDS) was a damn bloody success. ALL THANKS TO THE GENEROUS DONATIONS OF PEOPLE IN THE CAMPUS!!!! :):) I was so negative about it beforehand *refers to prev entry* , never did I think the response would be so good. The condoms did their thing. HAHA. Nevertheless, some of those of the older generation weren't that open-minded and felt insulted with the idea of us giving out condoms.
Safe sex safe sex people. Just glad that we far exceeded our goal. Cheerios. :):)

Was so worn out by the end of the event that I couldn't help but cab home despite peak hours.

Back to today.
Nic and I decided to pamper ourselves silly with food . HAHA. Gluttony. Huge portion of yummy chicken chop, fried prawn noodles , dope BBQ stingray. * SINFUL * Had cost and managerial accounting tutorial first thing in the morning, it's so tough. I actually attempted the classwork after the constantly-checking-on-me-tutor explained over and over and over again.
Skipped lecture once more with the intention of revising for the EBA retest at 4pm. I soo detest IT related matters. We had five hours for revision , FIVE HOURS, and the test turned out a FLOP. I know I didn't put in my 100% effort for this, very sure.

Two more major papers to clear. That I WILL AND MUST DO MY BEST. Luck, baby.

2008-07-02T07:49:00.000-07:00

Things are getting out of hand. And I'm definitely unhappy.It feels too damn insecure to not have control over your problems. Losing my focus right now?? Do me no good especially when I'm having 3 important papers coming up, major projects, piling up tutorials and all the shit. I can't even get myself started on revision, even though I know that time's not on my side. Furthermore, having to squeeze in slots for tutoring ( I feel like an irresponsible person pushing back tuition dates) and time out for my friends. Why must I even feel obligated to ensure that you are satisfied? Maybe cause I'm far too dependent on you. A selfish bitch I know, not wanting to be emotionally tied down due to the tons of expectations to meet . I'm afraid of commitments , uhhh oh yes , did I just forgotten about what's give and take?? Perhaps , perhaps things are better left unsaid. :+
I'm having some event at the Atrium tomorrow, raising awareness for AFA. Am glad that they provided us with some pamphlets , condoms , brochures.. At least we have some materials to start with ,or else this project would be a major flop. No idea what's gonna happen, how are we going about getting passerbys' attention, how our booth's gonna look like... Heck. It's tomorrow.

Save me.

2008-07-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

It has been real busy for me lately. OH YUH AND BEFORE I FORGET.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GOVIN - ny once again !!!!!!!! That's a belated virtual cupcake I'm sending to you for your birthday since we couldn't find any cake shops that day. HAHA. Yours truly is such a bad friend. If not for Sunday's dinner together, I wouldn't even know!! SO SO SORRY. A thousand and one apologies. :(
Anyway, thanks for the company , otherwise I would have ended up as one dead and hungry being.

Anymoohow, Monday proved too tiring for me to take, skipping the afternoon lecture in exchange for that 2 hours nap was awesome. Felt so soo refreshing after waking up.

As for today, it was disappointing. :( Well because of several matters,not gonna spell out everything, triple BOOS.

We got to know of our grade for EBA presentation as well as report, it wasn't up to our expectations I must say. A freaking B+. After those positive comments ?? That was quite unexpected. Aye aye. Nic and I couldn't take the boredom during HRM tutorial and the classroom was too damn cold , so we went out and practically sat there chatting away. It's not easy to find someone who feels the same way as you, makes sharing so much more comfortable. :):) you rock.

I think dentists earn a huge sum. Again, my rash decision to visit the dentist after school. It was so fucking expensive!! Did cleaning and filling ( the basic dental procedures) and the bill came up to a whooping 235 bucks. And the dentist did everything so quickly. To think I used to dread dental appointments during secondary and primary school, dentals are free.

*sighs* I'm gonna be a dentist. HAHAHA.

So many things, so little time.

2008-06-26T06:35:00.000-07:00

*screams* I NEED MORE THAN 24 HOURS A DAY.

I hate having to complete my work but yet getting stuck.

I hate accountings. I catch no balls.

I hate having to juggle with so many projects at once.

I hate knowing that I have some major papers coming up at this juncture.

I seriously need to buck up. Really.

2008-06-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

A BBQ I missed. :(

Okay I must attend the next time.

p.s. TONS OF WORK!!!! And yet I'm doing everything at snail's speed.

2008-06-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. This break's been quite fulfilling taking into account my goal from the beginning. ''To enjoy myself to the fullest before another hectic term kick-starts.'' I did most of the things I planned to.
Short escapade. Catching-ups with some old friends. More and more reality shows. Shopping. Movies. Stuffing myself crazy. And all the basic leisure activities.
Of course, things don't always run smooth all the time. There are down times and I've been giving myself constant reminders to get myself back on track. Sucky for this period but what do you expect when something nasty smacks you right on your face. Time , time , time ..Things will get better I believe. I've been unable to concentrate on whatever I'm doing , my thoughts get further and further and it's tiring to have them pulled back . For once, I hope school can get me preoccupied during the day at least.

I couldn't keep track of what took place on whichever days. So , the random flow of pictures.

Freaking funny show. A must catch.

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky cause'

You really had me goin'

2008-06-19T21:08:00.000-07:00

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right, but it seems unfair
The things are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, tell me
Is this the end?

p.s. Thanks so much Ses.

2008-06-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

4e7 class gathering turned out to be some clique gathering (only a couple of us turned up).
But nonetheless , it was spanking fun to hang out with people you once shared so much with. Our gatherings always turn out a blast no matter what, cause of the company we had.

Bowling . Dinner @ BK . Playing Murderer at void decks .

YOU PEOPLE ARE THE ULTIMATE!!! :):):)

2008-06-16T22:27:00.000-07:00

BACK!

KL's good for shopping and really dope food. But the traffic is shit , I nearly got knocked down by vehicles so many times. I appreciate Singapore so much more now.

Yesterday saw me with Ses, in town for PepperLunch. (seriously stink us up) .
I HAVE NEVER SEEN SOMEONE SO SO SO AFRAID / TERRIFIED OF COCKROACHES BEFORE!
A cockroach just crossed her path, not even near her , she screamed like some fuck! And I screamed cause SHE scared the shit out of me , not the cockroach.
It becomes a routine already.
She screams, I scream, then I go on squatting down laughing like some insane person.
Imagine for the whole walk back home, 3 cockroaches in total. [how much laughing fits I had to endure!!]
It was truly entertaining, gloating over her fear, I'm so mean. HAHA.

Anyway, the promised peekas from dance reunion! *Pardon our un-glamorous side.*

I'm gonna make full use of my jam-packed week and enjoy myself before school officially starts and I gotta slog my guts out. Major Boo.

2008-06-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

TUESDAY.

First of all, I must extend my apologies to Ses. I know NUTS about flowers!!!! Went to the shop, scanned , chose those with pretty colours , purchased it .
WHY IN THE HELL MUST FLOWERS CARRY CERTAIN MEANING BEHIND IT?!?

You see, yours truly missed Ses's concert and decided to repay her by making a card and getting her flowers. I didn't want to get boring ol' roses so that explains the mixture of flowers . With limited knowledge on flowers, I stood there for minutes and randomly picked out a few.
The daisy(red) was fine. The carnation(pink) was not too bad, Ses told me they were for mothers?? Okay I can take that blow. And the purple white one was m-fing CHRYSANTHEMUM. I'm too damn embarrassed to explain what's that for. Go figure.
I AM SO SORRY SES!

And I spent the night doing this card. Considering I'm not the arty-farty kinda person, this is not too shabby. HAHA. NO DRAWING NEEDED!! yayy.

At Night.
Back to school! Secondary school that is, for our annual dance camp reunion. It is always enjoyable. Some of whom I haven't met for a good whole year, but we bonded just like we once did.
Camwhoring , chatting up on one another's life , dancing , singing , buffet , yummy chocolate cake, performances , & endless fun...

Here are the sneak peeks , will upload the rest of the photos when I receive them . :) ::
Isn't this new teacher-in-charge adorable?!? I finally got to snap a photo with her.!

Alright, am heading to KL tomorrow. SHOP EAT SHOP EAT! :)
Be back soon.:)

2008-06-08T22:12:00.000-07:00

*I have to date my posts a day back before they can appear so do your math.*

Life's been good so far. Not taking into account some hiccups due to absence of the last common test paper. Boo, gotta face the music when term starts. Meanwhile , I will enjoy the short term holiday now. Woohoo.

Today was initially boring , glued to the net watching The Hills. ( Audrina Patridge is smokin' hot.!) Plan to visit the warehouse for the new jersey collection was canceled in the end. So I made plans with Sm to have lunch , Zhiyong tagged along too and we had loads of fun.! :) Little did we know lunch-ing at Sakura allowed us to bump into a couple of familiar faces.
Ice-creams . Roasted chestnuts. Mahjong. Mini-makeup session for our hot model. :)

With very very sucky tiles. We practically got bored after two rounds of it. And we went ahead with Makeup stuff. I tell you , Zhiyong's features are so good to work with. He looks handsome as a boy and equally gorgeous as a girl.
Faux eyelashes . Liquid eyeliner . Lip Gloss. And Voila!!!
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He was really sporting when it comes to make-up. To compensate his reputation, I gotta say :''Zhi Yong is a handsome boy!! He's got some rocking muscles as well. Woo hoo! :):);) ''

Today was fun I must say.And I look forward to the gathering tomorrow as well. Lotsa catching up to do , these girls whom I spent most of my secondary life with, can never get enough of them. :):)

Happy Holidays!!!!

2008-06-07T00:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a crazy night. Fucking crazy. The 'MINS' reunited as well as Andri-min. ( ain't dreamin') Haha. Decided to head out for a drink and catch up with one another. Who knew it turned into quite a night. Running against the travelator.Smooching one another.Offering fries to strangers.Posing along stairways. Giving help to the glass cleaner at Mac( but he declined.) etc....
We headed to Clinic and that's where everything started. Such ridiculous fun. My throat still hurts from yesterday. And the minor argument through texting left me all rotten when I reached home at night.

Anymoohow, if you cant take the content of the pictures , just click the cross. We were only having fun.

When common tests are over and the afternoon gets too boring to handle.

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it.

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it.

2008-06-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

Mugging for the past few days has made me sick in the stomach and I cannot stand the sight of notes. It was good that the amount of content to handle was still manageable, that's cause I started revision earlier. Except for the last paper , which yours truly decided to skip , because I'm totally not confident of it.

Monday.

Took a break from mugging to catch The Chronicles of Narnia :Prince Caspian.
Fairytale. Magic. Fighting. Witches. And what not.
Was never enthusiastic about such shows , intended to catch Sex and the City but does a few months from the legal age make a huge difference.? Boo to the law.
Quite a draggy show which nearly made me burst my bladder. (I have a no-going-to-toilet-during-movies rule).

Tuesday & Wednesday.
Papers.Mugging.

Thursday.
Over to the clinic to get a medical cert. Then home to have some really sucky Tom Yam Maggi, I actually thought it was yummy in the past. Maybe I wasn't really that hungry.
Going back to school just to submit the MC was such a waste of time but I gotta do it still , otherwise the consequences would be unbearable.
Nicole (the ingenious one who thought of the 'GREAT' strategy) and I went to PS to have lunch and strolled around the boring shopping mall, in need of some after-CT-wind-down.

Evening , the rash decision to get my hair back to jet black. Nicole says she will miss the blonde streaks . I'm more than sick of it already. HAHA.

Long chat with Ses last night.
She knows me so much better than I know myself, it's so scary!

Friday.
Saw Ariel after sooo long. We actually sat down for three hours going through Maths and English. He was fidgety throughout. Tsk tsk. Now that common tests are over , I can get back to tutoring and also make time for friends! Vonnie! Though it was a short get-together today, at least I get to see her for awhile, beats not having meet up with each other at all.

I'm really wavering.

2008-06-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

Tagged! Here's it, Von! :)

1) How long will you wait for someone you love?
I think I answered this before.

2)What is the thing you regret most?
Quite a number of situations left me with regret. But the one thing that still makes me lament about is not giving my best during that period in time.

3)What will you do when your dearest lost trust in you?
Try to gain back the trust that I deserve and if all else fails, I believe there's nothing I can do right?

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
Hate is a strong word, I wouldn't hate my friends. Perhaps dislike certain things about them.

5)Where do you wish to die?
I don't want to answer that.

6)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?
Yes. Metaphorically and literally.

7)What impossible things do you wish to do?
I can't do something that's impossible so not much of a point wishing. ;)

8) Your darkest secret?
Not sharing.

9)Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
No. Who would be that foolish?

10) What if your crush asked you out?
Ooh man. Ses,you can answer this for me. She knows me all too well. HAHA.

11)Describe your other half?
Haven't found my other half.

12)What feelings do you hate the most?
Negative feelings.

13)Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes.

14)What are you looking forward in the coming weeks?
Same as you Vonny. For common tests to be OVER.

15) The most important thing in my life.
My parents.

16)Have you ever betrayed someone who's dearest to you?
No.

17)Do you find life meaningless?
No. You only live once.And there's so much to it, ups and downs.

18) Who do you love the most?
Refer to 15)

19) The craziest thing you ever did.
I did something really really shameful when I was young. Too embarrassed to share.

20) What's your greatest wish?
Perfection. All aspects.

21) The sweetest thing you ever did for someone?
HAHA. Yeah, I'm really bad at expressing my gratitude, it's not like I don't appreciate , I do actually (much more than people think) . Just not used to mushy gestures.

I TAG THOSE IN MY LINKS! :)

2008-05-30T21:12:00.000-07:00

[edits]

I feel like a fool cause I'm smiling while showering.
I feel like an out-of-control crazy girl on my way home.
I feel like my heart just flown out my mouth.
I feel like I was in my dreams.
I freaked out. (on a positive note).
I still feel the aftermath.
For sure I know, that was the happiest moment in my life.
Even though it was a split second thing. :):):)

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I can't believe I sat down to watch the dumb 9pm Chinese serial for a good whole hour.
It's so meaningless how someone can toss a coin and have his life replayed so that he could change things he regretted. Then again, what is life?
My mum and I stared at one another the minute the show ended and started laughing so hard.
'' This is a monkey shitty show.'' , she said.
Why don't everyone in the show just die , including the Grandma, then nothing can ever happen again! GREAT.

Was telling Dad how my phone fell to the ground upon my excitement just now and slid a metre away.
He checked my phone and asked if I like the functions and all. I mean it's just a normal normal nokia phone and explained to him my long time craze for a Blackberry. Digging it as always.

'' I will get you one when you enter U.''

''Uh, by the time , I don't know if it's still in the market or not leh. You know how fast technology evolves.''

'' Ok. Then I get you a Wildcherry by then.''

-_-*

Alright , my first paper kick starts tomorrow.Wish me luck.
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2008-05-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

Watched Contender Asia.
And I went :'' shit, shit shit! ''
For whatever reasons people want to get bashed up like that !?!?!!

It's so frightening seeing blood flow down their faces. OH MY GOSH. I hope they don't get seriously injured.

No, I cannot accept it yet.
You just ruined my night .

2008-05-26T07:18:00.001-07:00

Maybe it's true I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too
And maybe i'm wrong , it's all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said .

I actually did some studying.

Sunday.
In a way, it's productive cause of the trip to the library during late morning. I must say, Cafe Galilee's service is bad as compared to the past.
All the way till the night , before I reached home and switched on the tv to.........
Charity for China's Earthquake.
Geez, as much as I dislike Cheenas, it's disheartening to witness lives taken away like that. Can't help but shed some tears when I saw the video clip of the victims.
Certainly a time for reflection .When you think your life is at it's pit , you might want to think twice.

Today saw me at Ses's place, yes, studying. I need to . Common tests in four days time. *sighs* This whole week's e learning and it dampens my mood to know that I would have to head back to school tmr for some matters.

Doodling .
Guess the odd one out and the artist.
*No prizes for guessing correctly* :)

All joking aside, let's say you and I come out and say what we're trying to hide.